Saturday, November 21, 2009

MY LIFE!!

The cold of the pillow waking up in the morning
The comfort of holding my left Pectoral in my right hand facing down on the pillow
The hazy sound of music in my head
Shaking my head to clear the sound
The cold of the water running down on my spine
Thinking about the unconventional conversation I had on the phone
The dream of the snow
The things I tell my people to do
Feeling the warmth of the lighter on the palm of my hand
inhale...exhale
The joy of watching a tall girl in high heels trying but not knowing how to dance
The itch in my spleen caused by the beat of the music
The choir of angels calling out my name from heaven
Seeing the look in people's eyes catching the sparkles on my neck left by our kisses
The burn in my duodenum cause by your words
This is my life and I have paid for it

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

same old dream
same old fear
so old that I even know it is actually a dream
like always now is the moment I hesitate to open the door that takes me out of here
some one chasing and I cannot move
feeling his breath on the back of my neck
hearing his screams in my head
never dared to stop running and face it instead
my never ending dream always ends in sweat on my face
these all cannot be coincident  but I am still and unbeliever
gone too far again and happy to have done it

Tried of running away and torturing myself in my dream I just turn back to see the dream for the last time
that is the moment I decide to give death a shot with my boots on, on the soil that is so fertile to me

I stop running, it is still chasing me, the warm breath is so close, the scream is so loud
slowly turn back and all I see is his eyes so close to my face
the eyes were mine